3 months already

What a crazy few weeks it's been.  Thus, the lack of blogging.  Jesa (her nickname since Jesalyn seems to be a bit tricky for people to say) has just been growing so much.  I can't believe how much she has changed in just three months.  She is still skinny minny.  That girl doesn't have one baby fat roll on her.  Her hair is still growing.  It's so cute after we give her a bath.  It's just a head full of peach fuzz.  We still can't decide on the color.  Some days is looks so red, but then other days it's as blond as can be.  Either way, she's beautiful!  She's started to talk...or coo as they say.  The phrases she likes to hear and imitate are "hello," "pretty girl," and "good baby."  She looks at you so intently as you talk to her and then she'll stop, open her mouth and this sweet, melty voice comes rushing out of her mouth. Let me tell you,  you hear this and you'll want to cry.  It's sweet because this voice sounds so much different than what we've heard before.  Granted, the only other thing that has come out of her mouth so far is screams and cries =) But I promise, it's adorable. 

    We took her for her 2  month check-up back in December. She was 8pd 12oz and 21.5 inches long. She also got her first doses of vaccines.  Oh my goodness.  This was an ordeal.  Still kind of is.  Jarrod and I are a little unsure about vaccines.  It just seems like they want to vaccinate you for everything these days.  I mean, I got the chicken pox when I was little, and I'm okay. Why do we need a shot to keep you from getting it?  Like Jarrod says, when he was little he remembers when a kid would get chicken pox and every parent in town would make their child play with him/ her  just so their child could get it and get it over with.   Why have we become so afraid of everything these days?  Plus, we were worried about all the side effects.  We always try to know as much as we can on anything we do. Let me just say, the internet can be a scary thing.  Even on some of the CDC (government ran) sites, there were some crazy side effects listed as "rare, but possible" on the vaccines.  We were in tears trying to make this decision.  After about 4 weeks of back and forth contemplating, we decided to go ahead with them, well most of them (there were a few we decided against.) When they put those needles in her little legs, she screamed harder than I have ever heard her scream.  Mom (me) cried just as hard as Jesa did. I couldn't stand seeing her in pain.  And the bad news is, we have to go back in February and do it all over again.  It's the beginning of January and I'm already sick to my stomach thinking about.  So, what about all you mommy and daddy's out there?  Did you do the whole vaccine thing?  What are your thoughts on it?? 

     The other huge thing we've faced just within the past week is the whole day care issue.  Something else we went back and forth on.  We finally decided to go ahead with it.  Jarrod and I both have pretty good jobs and didn't want to lose them, plus financially, it was the best choice.  We had the place picked out and the night before her first day, through tears I labeled all of her things (crib sheets, pacifier, etc) and made all of her bottles.  The next morning we both got up, got dressed for work. I went to get her out of her bed so I could get her dressed and diaper changed and she was laying there so sweet and comfortable.  The tears started again, but this time mixed with a knot in my stomach.  I brought her into the living room where Jarrod was, and we just looked at each.  We just couldn't do it. We just couldn't send her.  We went through every possible sacrifice we could make, how much money we had saved up and compared that to what sending her to day care meant to us and Jarrod called that morning and quit his job.  Crazy?  Yes, I know, but we really felt like it was the right thing to do.  I have been at my job much longer than he has been at his, so now he's staying home with her.  He's amazing.  She's going to be a daddy's girl, and I'm just fine with that. He's looking for night work to help but even if he doesn't find it, I know that this is what we were suppose to do and I have faith that it will work out in the end.  Plus, Jesa gets to stay home with her daddy everyday =)

     I'm sure there's more I haven't covered but I just got home for work and there's a sweet little angel I hear in the other room talking, and I just can't miss out ;)

...thanks for reading...