I know I haven't posted much as of late. I'll be honest with you, this chica has been dealing with some stuff. Nothing crazy, just life. The past several months I have felt like I've been walking around with 30 pound weights strapped to my ankles. You use all this energy and strength to take one step forward only to take a quick rest and deep breath and then realize you can't keep walking until the other foot comes forward. By the end of the day, your just exhausted.
I know that I'm blessed beyond means, but every so often you just want to have yourself a little pity party (so bear with me.) Life is not easy. It's hard. Things don't always go as planned, relationships take much more work than you ever thought possible, and some days you just want to throw your hands in the air and sream at the top of your lungs "when will this get easy?!"
Something I learned about myself a long time ago is that I'm a crier. It's true, I've come to terms with it so don't judge. You either are a crier or your not. Some people get angry when stressed. Some people eat. Others yell. I do really good with stress for a while but when it builds and builds and I've reached my pinnacle I break down and cry. at. everything.
I know ultimately that this will pass and we'll look back at it some day and say "how in the world did we get through all of that." And the important thing will be that we did get through it and made it out the other side, hopefully still somewhat sane =) I know the outcome because we've been through "stuff" before and between the awesome God we have and myself being one. tuff. chick (yes, I'm so tough that I spell it t.u.f.f) this too will pass. But it does't mean it will be easy. So, until I see the sun peaking through this analogical cloud, pass the kleenex.